So...I have three more days of this before ten months of that. I leave San Fransisco at noon on Tuesday, and by 8:05am Wednesday I'll be in Santiago. Wham. When I put it out there straight, seems simple enough. If it were only a matter of travel time, the transition would be saved much complication, and I'd sleep better these nights, but that's just not how it is. The move involves a whole slosh of thoughts and emotions that I'm pretty sure I can't sort out into anything worth trying to describe. What it all breaks down to is my soul. A soul can be a tricky thing to carry, but I'd obviously never want to lose it. I have an emotional soul, it packs a lot of feeling. Sometimes I get carried away, but I've always felt unrelenting awareness of my deep appreciation for the people and places around me. I embrace this world. As departure gets closer, the more I feel my emotions creeping in and the more I find myself realizing how much I cherish this life. Living feels so great. I am very aware of what I love here and its tough to move away from that, but I want to explore what I will love about there. That's the exciting part. That's why I'm embracing this opportunity. That's why when I think about Chile my mind starts to wander and my heart beats faster. Then tears blur my vision, my emotions won't let excitement keep them down. I try not to wipe them away too quick, they glaze this transition. They stem from my roots, from the part of my soul where I'll keep what I know, what I love, safe as I travel. In that way I'll hold all I love snuggled safe, until I'm with it again, even though right now I can't let it hold me back. Here I'm embracing these moments that are now, and there I'll embrace the moments I'm excited to find myself in.
I'm sure its for moments like this that I'm alive. Despite the threat of rain, my parents and I decided to trek up into Mitchell Canyon and enjoy the supreme beauty that is the Diablo foothills together. Because of them I am alive, because of them I am me, and I could never thank them enough for that. They are also just fantastic people that teach and inspire me, and I always do and always will cherish my time with them. I haven't even left yet and I look forward to their visit. But for today we had a whole mess of fun bouldering and splashing our way up the waterfall ravine.
And this is the great stuff of life.
